Got cold feet

Tomorrow is the start of no drugs and special diet. Can't remember what I ate for the whole of the last 2 week low iodine diet. Better get thinking quick otherwise I am going to be very hungry!!

Now I am here I am not so sure I want to do it. When I was going through my big traumas about not wanting a second treatment and believing I was healed, I felt that I must just have the second treatment and trust that God would protect me from any harm from the treatment. BUT logically, having the whole body scan to check whether I actually need the second treatment makes sense, hence finding myself at the start of preparation for the said whole body scan to check. I am wobbling substantially.

Managed to get my hot yoga in today, only just though, had to put the current sculpture on pause. Was on a roll this morning creating one of the three that are currently under way. My teacher said just before half term that I was attempting something that was technically advanced and that I should seek advice from others who are doing similar stuff. As a result I have been in communication with an arts professor in the US who has been very generous sharing her knowledge and skills that she has developed whilst building pieces with similar techniques to that which I am using. Has been so helpful. The piece I finished today is called "Transformation". It is a set of strands a bit like a fibre optic lamp although lying down. The strands are all murky colours and in a tangled ball at one end and then each turns white and then ends as a different rainbow colour all spread out. I say finished, it is drying on the former I made for it, which is sitting on a small piece of kiln shelf so that it can be placed straight into the kiln without being handled.

Spent 3 and a half hours at the Hexagon tonight for a schools fundraising concert. My beauty sang well in the choir and the steel pans are always good. Some other items however were cringe worthy and even my beauty said some of the other singers were out of tune, oh yes they most certainly were! Tears at the very late bedtime of course and the rest of the week on trauma alert after such a late night - wooooopey, NOT.

So if I am going to take better care of myself, I will go to bed now.

Sleep well all
xx